Wednesday

can it be real that things do not feel quite so real sometimes? i feel often that i am living in the movie world. things go well then turn bad, then get great again. i feel like i am awaiting the corner of bad news.
i feel bad to be so happy in such a bad part of unfortunate events also. i hope they understand how happiness cannot just be helped sometimes. i do bite my tongue at such sadness. i do. but i secretly want to scream and jump so high for joy.

i'll tell mr squirrel instead.
i feel awfully silly at times. but wish for all spectaculars to bloom for all. i wish for things to go right for once. and carry on going right. that could be the start of me you know.

24 comments:

  1. mr. squirle looks happy to have caught your photo. :)

    i understand what you are saying. sometimes i just feel life is a series of misfortunate events & i'm always waiting for the next one or trying to avoid the next one. but sometimes they are blessings. my car accident last was the turning point in my life, also the near collaspe of my marriage.. but in a stange way i'm glad they happened to me because from them i grew.. so i grew from those 2 things.. not from the birth of my 2 babies.. that just made me a mother. my dad always told me this: always expect the worst, but always hope for the best. sort of makes sense to me now. sorry to ramble :) xx
    lara

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  2. Ah yes, I can totally relate to what you wrote. When people are sad, I almost feel obligated to weep with them while all I want to do is enjoy my own insouciance.
    (although lately it seems like I am the one who's dragging everyone down with me)

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  3. I hope things get better soon. You should never feel bad for feeling happy :) There's always a reason to smile.
    *hugs*

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  4. Don't feel bad for feeling happy, feel thankful that you can still find joy amongst unfortunate events xxx

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  5. Same thoughs in my little head x) Sometimes it feels kind of funny when the sun starts shining on me, even there has been a sad things going on :) I'll always try to catch those moments and hold on to them, thinking them when there comes another time I'm feeling low :)
    *Happy hugs*

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  6. aww that squirrel is so cute :)

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  7. Sometimes I feel like that too, like a bad thing is just waiting around the corner and that all good things must have a bittersweet end. But it's important to focus on the good things on what was good then;)

    Lots of hugs
    S

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  8. Oh darling! I hope that bad news does not wait for you. Instead you should fill your head with pretty thoughts and happy smiles. But I know how you feel, and I hope we can both stop feeling so silly in the future.

    xo
    Jess.

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  9. i feel the exact same way !! it is odd, but usually i'll see my life turn into actual TV and movie events.. i'm glad life is going well for you though !! oh, and the picture of the squirrel made me laugh :D

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  10. oh, i hope everything turns out well for you. everything usually does, in the end. and i hope the handsome mr squirrel can help :)

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  11. How I miss squirrels! The ones in Hyde Park in particular, they are such clever, gutsy fellows ;)

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  12. I think the deepest joy is found in pain and hard times. It's the most important time to find it too. It doesn't have to depend on circumstances! Melancholy people make me sad - they could be so happy if they saw it that way. Squirrels are such wonderful friends.

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  13. I hope you feel happy no matter what, it's ok to shed a tear or two-- it's okay to feel that heaviness in your heart, too. But it's okay, if you are essentially happy; everything is okay.

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  14. After a long time being happy I think things may change for me for a while...it is the way the world turns but I do not welcome it. Still that is what comes when you love someone who turns out not to be quite right for you... what you say is good though - it reminds me that in time I will be happy again. xxx

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  15. i know how you feel, especially about realy things seeming not real. i hope you feel completely happy soon :3
    ~ grace
    ps. mr. squirrel is too cute!

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  16. your blog is so pretty!

    perhaps you'd check out mine...?

    http://alltheprettyvisitors.blogspot.com/

    thanks, bella xxx

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  17. oh, dear miss charlotte you are so inspirational. i can relate to your beautiful words so much, i just wish i had a lovely mr squirrel to tell everything to, maybe he would understand more than others. i do hope you feel happy, and i do hope that mr squirrel helps you through any worries dear, much love, from suzannah ♥

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  18. don't focus on what might be coming, focus on how happy you are now and live in the moment. it works, believe me.
    you deserve to be very happy, miss charlotte.
    xx

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  19. I Luuurve your blog!
    ill love the music you have on your playlist too!
    photos are amazing!
    keep blogging :) xxx

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  20. Oh WOW, this is a great post & you have the most gorgeously beautiful site here. I had to stop by to leave this comment for you – and to say hello of course ! Your posts are creative and original and you have interesting pictures. It's all perfect ! Thank you for sharing your site and best wishes... Happy weekend....

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  21. I can completely relate to this, exactly. Life has been so amazing for me so far this school year, & I keep feeling like I'm flying, but I just feel so scared that I'm going to fall & everything will get horrible. I don't want it to. Or when I have the perfect day, something sad will happen. Tears.
    I have a little love problem, I need your advice greatly. Maybe send me a flickrmail? We should chat soon.
    xoxo, Sprinkle

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  22. Great post! and wonderful pics! Wishing you all the best! Have a sweet Sunday!x

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