Wednesday

2018 - A mid year reflection

How have we got to June already? Half of a year has almost been and gone already. HALF! It seems the perfect time to sit at the end of my bed, cross legged and reflect at the year so far. I re-read my post that I wrote at the beginning of the year (2018 // A new chapter) with the goals I set myself for the year and went through each of them.
Reading. I am impressed to learn that I am on target. 6 books read out of the 12 I set myself to read within the year. I am hoping to read more than the original goal of 12 but I will be happy if I complete it nevertheless.
This goal has been a turning point for me. I had a blip in April where I read nothing at all but sure enough I kicked myself back into it and I really love the downtime part of it. Especially setting time aside to read in bed before I fall asleep. Much better than falling asleep to Netflix!

Minimise phone use. Since the social media break I gave myself in January, this one has been an easy one to keep up. I am so over the novelty of likes and numbers and frankly it had started giving me serious anxiety. It seemed I was envious of people's adventures, their freedom, their idyllic home life that it was seriously unhealthy for me to keep scrolling. I have become unattached ever since. Thankfully. Plus I missed sharing my little life on here, my safe space, where numbers have NEVER been thought of as a 'thing'. I have missed documenting my memories here (even if no one reads it anymore!).

Being more creative. Half a year in and I have had more or less ZERO creativity. This hasn't helped with my mental health battle (see ramblings in my previous post, here). Creativity is/was a big part of me and I have lost it and thankfully I have noticed this, so I have started writing again and painting too.
I have also decided to start a Gratitude journal. After reading Hannah Bullivant's post Why and How I journal, it really struck a chord, I was inspired. I used to write in journals alot. Growing up it was more of a diary (all the dark times!!!) and through university it was more creative writing and collage. Then blogging became my outlet for documenting my thoughts. I love the idea of keeping a gratitude journal full of great moments that happened each day, to help get through the potential not so great moments of the day. An excellent exercise for focusing on the positives. I also want to incorporate creativity in this too, even if it's including images and gold washi tape.
(Ps I still plan on quitting my office job - I just need a game plan ... and my creative mojo back!!).

Meal planning. Again, due to a slight blip in my mental health, this has fallen by the wayside. I have become lazy. I still feed my child all the good food- homemade healthy chips, vegetables (she LOVES broccoli!!), veggie pasta, sausages (her favourite!) and the like. But I really want to start batch cooking again, especially when we have afternoon playdates and get home close to teatime. Homemade pizza bases, vegetable risottos, chilli, fishcakes, mini quiche snacks etc. Nothing gives me greater satisfaction than a full freezer of homemade food.

More ethical / Zero waste. This I feel I have done fairly well in. I still struggle to buy fruit without the non recyclable plastic packaging as I just can't get to a large supermarket or the market (I must try harder!!). I have however cut down on the waste usage on other household things. We have ditched the dish washing sponges and replaced them with wooden brushes and washable dish cloths. Olive and I use bamboo toothbrushes - and love them! We also have matching gold stainless steel water bottles.
We have nearly replaced all our daily products to cruelty free and ethical brands (We are using everything we already had so to reduce waste). And where we can, use organic and natural based products.

Decluttering.  This process has well and truly begun and it is SUCH a big job, so much so that it overwhelms me. However it is a job that needs to be done now rather than desired as it was before. But more of why in another post!
Sebastian has already successfully sold some things and we have a full weekend planned (sans Olive) so we can both get 'stuck in' without distraction. We'll probably need at least two more weekends to complete it but I just can't wait to see the end result now.

Self care. Something that I need to do more of. Saying no to something I don't want to do and realising that it's completely okay to do so. Taking candle lit bubble baths with a good book before having an early night, after a long day. Choosing to spend time alone when I need it the most and asking for help in order to do so. Spending more time outside (as long as the sun isn't too hot for my pale skin!). Taking a nap where I can if needed. Doing things for me when I can.
Eating healthier and Meditation are things I really want to focus the next half of the year doing. I would like to incorporate Meditation into my daily routine. I think i'll look into taking a couple of classes for practise. As for eating healthier, we all know that good nourishing food helps to keep our energy levels up - something I am seriously lacking of late.
Having a little sit down to reflect has really helped me in my current state. I am actually doing okay with these goals. Much better than I ever thought! Though I haven't been on schedule with all the goals I set myself, there is still so much time to turn it around. The ball is in my court as they say.
I still fully believe that this year is MY year. And I very much need to make this happen. I need to get the ball rolling, the motivation flowing, no one else can do this for me.
But I finally have the momentum to do so. I have no idea where to start or what path will lead me where but I know what I don't want and that is a very good start in my books.

6 comments:

  1. I've been trying to cut down my phone use too but it is so difficult! Glad you are meeting some of your goals

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    1. The initial part is tricky, but turning off all notifications and picking up a good book helps.
      I wrote a post about my social media break -http://www.theteadrinkingenglishrose.com/2018/01/things-i-learnt-from-social-media-break.html

      It was such a wonderful self care exercise!
      Thank you, me too! xxx

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  2. Loved this little catch up darling Charlotte - just make sure you don't forget you in all of this {ie the self care bit!}. Sending so much love to you and that little peach of yours xxxxx

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    1. Thank you lovely Sally! I promise I won't. I have been spending a great deal of alone time in the evenings catching up on reading and scheduling blog posts. It feels so good! Much needed.
      Thank you!
      Sending lots of love to you too Sally! xxxxx

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  3. A lot of this resonates with me! In the past I've found keeping a 5 things I'm grateful for and 5 things I've achieved diary enough to get me back on track. I suppose it's a form of mindfulness but writing down 5 things you've achieved can really help as much as the grateful things. It will probably just be little things, yet it will help you notice all those little steps you're making are adding up to the bigger places you want to be in life.

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  4. I absolutely cannot recommend meditation enough. It's something I started doing late on last year and it is so wonderful at calming me down and decluttering my mind. I'd try and find a therapist, and ask them if they are trained in meditation techniques!

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